ANN IN HEAVEN

Would you meet me?
Would you talk with me?
Would you walk with me?
If I saw you in heaven.


You will be happy,
You are fulfill with joy,
It's nothing I can do,
I just spectating you from behind.


I know I don't belong here,
I must walked out,
And let my tears down,
To see you stay in heaven.


Would you accept me?
Would you love me?
Would you stay by my side?
'Cause I know I don't deserve it.


My tears fall down,
When I watch you feel the happiness,
My heart parish,
'Cause I am not good as you.


Would you help me stand?
'Cause I feel down so crush.
And I know,
You will ignore it.


I am just dull and unperfect,
I do not deserve you,
No one never ever understand me,
And everyone seems hates me.


I walked out,
With my hands on the pocket,
And my head look down,
My tears down again.


When I walked out from there,
I looked back at you,
You still enjoy the moment,
And never look at me again.


I must be strong,
To face what is in front of me,
I just can keep,
My sadness now.


I cried for you,
I prayed for you,
I thinking about you,
I only hoped that I can be together with you,
For just a while or once.


And I know you will push it,
I know you will mocking me,
And I dedicated this for you,
You will be good in heaven,
Ann...


--------ToKaN Al-MaNSuR------

KAKIKU

Kakiku,
Mempunyai tapak yang agak besar dan lebar,
Panjang dan berbulu.
Masa ini, kuku kakiku belum dipotong,
Dan seluar jeans biru serta selipar menghiasai kakiku.


Kakiku,
Telah membawaku ke sana sini,
Kecekalan dan ketabahan diri mendorong kaki ini melangkah,
Menuju kebaikan dan meninggalkan larangan,
Perubahan juga didorong oleh kakiku ini.


Kakiku,
Punyai parut yang merata,
Dek kesalahan yang dilakukan,
Di tumit, buku lali, lutut,
Segalanya terukir parutan.


Kakiku,
Akan menuju ke jalan yang lebih baik,
Lebih jauh dan lebih mencabar,
Aku bergantung kepada anggota ini,
Selagi yang termampu,
Aku tetap bergerak bersamanya.


Kakiku,
Telah memberikan aku begitu banyak pengalaman dan kenangan,
Aku berubah bersama kaki ini,
Banyak perkara kaki ini telah lakukan,
Baik, jahat, mahupun kedua-duanya sekali.


Kakiku,
Tetap bersamaku sehingga ke akhirnya,
Namun, bagi yang tiadanya, aku bersimpati,
Ini adalah ujian ALLAH,
Supaya kita akur dengan segala yang telah dirancang oleh-Nya.


--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

Tears In Heaven

Umum tahu bahawa lagu ini dicipta oleh Eric Clapton disebabkan kematian anaknya yang jatuh daripada bangunan yang tinggi...
Beliau mencipta lagu ini untuk mengubat kedukaan di hatinya...
Aku amat tertarik dengan liriknya yang ada maksudnya itu...
Cukup menyayat hati...
Inilah lirik lagu 'Tears In Heaven'...

Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven,
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven.

I must be strong,
And carry on,
Cause I know, I don't belong,
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand?
If I saw you in heaven,
Would you help stand?
If I saw you in heaven.

I find my way,
Through night and day,
Cause I know, I just can't stay,
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend you knees,
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please,
Begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace, I'm sure,
And I know, there'll be no more,
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven,
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven.

I must be strong,
And carry on,
Cause I know, I don't belong,
Here in heaven.

Cause I know,
I don't belong,
Here in heaven.

FOR STEPHANIE

The time for temporary fights has come...
All of my friends and other people same age of mine in Malaysia fights too...
Fights for their future of life...
SPM determine their way of life...
What about me?
Hey, I'm just still like them...
Prepare for a battle...
But, just a little...
Because I know my ability is...


Before get into battlefield...
I got a sudden attack...
Not an ambush...
It is just an attack on my feelings towards Stephanie...
Man, I almost parish with that attack...
My heart almost crush because of her...
She simply does too...


It is true that I'm not perfect...
Such a fool that smoke cigarettes and has half teeth in front...
I know that I didn't handsome and macho even masculine...
After the attack, I slowly get up and heal my wounds that torture my heart...
All of that things happen to me, I still forgive her...
Because I know I was nothing, worthless...


In this wounded heart, I simply march onto the battlefield...
After fight for a while, then back to take some breath...
While waiting for the results of that war, I gonna take some clean income...
For my supply on the other days to come...
And I didn't care whatever my results is..
If it is good, I will continue to study...
If it not, I will continue to search for a clean income...


But whatever is happen, I will not forget Stephanie...
She is the one I'm sincerely love...
I has spend some times to get near with her...
I help her with her previous problems...
Although it is solve or not, I don't know...
The question now whether she likes me or not?
I really truthly, sincerely, really love, care, like of her...
She almost let down my hope towards her...
But, I still hold it...
I know I secretly like her...
I like to be in this situation...


What if she still rejects me?
What I'm gonna do?
On her attack at the old days, I'm closely to lose my path...
Only Islam gets me on to the true straight way...
And now, if she rejects me, I'm okay...
I'm fine, I will be alright...
But, my feelings will cry because of it...


Now, I hope and pray for your success, Stephanie...
I know you was a good one...
You are the great woman I had knew,,,
After this war, I will gone...
Gone from and for you...
Stephanie, the one that I adore...
You will be great...
And I will be fine...
And I still right behind you...


--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

NUKILAN BUATMU

Pukul 1.50 pagi, Isnin...
Aku ditemani bunyi dengkuran, kipas, dan detikan jam...
Suasana yang agak sunyi...
Tidak apa-apa, aku sudah lali dengan keadaan ini...
Maklumlah, kalian tahu aku ini bagaimana...


Bayangan wajahmu terpancar dalam mimpiku...
Tersentak aku dibuatnya...
Layanan mimpi sememangnya indah...
Aku mimpi kita bersama...
Aku terngiang-ngiang suasana di mana dalam satu mimpiku...
Aku dan kau berdiri bersebelahan di pesisiran konkrit Sungai Melaka...
Lampu jalan dan hembusan angin malam yang tenang...
Aku meletakkan tanganku di poket seluarku...
Kau pula tersenyum...
Senyuman yang cukup menambat hati...


Aku terfikir adakah aku patut meluahkan isi hatiku padamu...
Ah, masanya tidak sesuai...
Kau tersenyum sambil menongkat dagu...
Rasanya, kau terkenangkan kenangan indah yang lalu...
Aku tersenyum, mengeleng kepala, memandang bawah...
Memikirkan apa yang kau kenangkan...


Mungkin sekarang kau sedang terbang melayari mimpi...
Aku sememangnya tahu, aku tidak pernah muncul dalam mimpimu...
Kau tidak memikirkan aku pun sebelum ini...
Hanya aku sahaja yang memikirkanmu...
Mimpimu mungkin adalah mengecap kejayaan...
Bertemu jejaka idaman atau mengalami kepayahan...
Aku di sini melopong kekosongan...


Perlahan-lahan aku merapatimu...
Segala keluhan dan masalah telah aku ratapi...
Aku cuba menyelesaikan semua itu untukmu...
Namun, ianya hanyalah seperti pam tayar kereta api...
Ah, perit sungguh hati ini...
Ibarat memberi bunga, dibalas tuba...


Mungkin kau akan ke menara gading...
Mengejar impian dan mendapat kebahagiaan serta kejayaan...
Aku, tetap di sini...
Menjadi insan biasa...
Bekerja mencari serba sedikit rezeki halal...
Begitu ketara sekali perbezaannya...
Seperti pesawat pejuang Fokker Triplane milik Werner Voss dengan F-22A Raptor USAF...


Aku telah lama menyimpan perasaan cinta padamu...
Tetapi, aku tidak sanggup meluahkannnya...
Aku takut perasaanku terhadapmu ditolak nanti...
Aku tidak sanggup menerima kenyataan itu...
Aku tidak mahu hilang lagi...
Tetapi jika itu berlaku, aku terima seadanya...
Insan hina yang selalu sahaja dicerca dan diketawakan...


Minta maaf, 23 27 40 35...
Atas segalanya...
Aku, insan berdosa ini telah lama memaafkanmu...
Aku harap kita masih lagi berbaik...
Aku harap kau lebih beristiqamah dengan amalanmu...
Supaya kau dapat kebaikan...
Di dunia mahupun di akhirat...

--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------