The First Person

I thought I wouldn't see your face again
With a blink of eye, it happens
The faces that had turned me
Into a more morale man.

Compare you with Ann
You're both are great
And if you both ask me which one is better
I will answer nobody is better.

When I looked at that face
All old memories had strikes me back
I've been following your updates from time to time
Until now it has been for 6 years
6 years of spectating and heartbroken.

And during that 6 years
I try to heal it
And for your information
It is just nothing
Have you feel or understand me now, huh?

And now
You've really changed
Top to bottom
That coloured hair
Truly mixed eyes
And your killing natural
Knock me off again.

Why is it so hard to accept me
I know who I am
You know I've been cried for you for many years
And you've gone for a long time
It all has back
And makes my head feel pain.

Mardhiah,
You're the first person that I'd love
You're the first person that I'd said in my prayers
You're the first person that had reject me
You're the first person that have changed me to face the reality.

We even not meet at last reunion
You've turn arrogant
Last time you even not like this
What have changed you?
I really want to know.

You know Mardhiah
During our old times back there
I know what is you
Your face, your characteristic
The lefthanded women
And when I've tried to tell you my feelings towards you
You just simply knock me off.

I've tried, tried and tried again
If destiny said that I'll be with you
Why just you give me a chance to prove it
Or you will deny it
I'm sure about that...



--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

Memories Trees

During a fine spring
A beautiful day
Rise and shine towards it
It makes me smile.

Then, I took a walk
To my spot
A places that has a nice view
Under a tree, fine grass, an ocean at the front
With the shadow of sun at the surface.

I lit up a Dunhill lights
Smoking
I enjoy the view
And let my memories come back
So I write this

Usually a memories that make me wants to cry came back
And usually too I've cry
I've cry for my past failure
I've cry for my future
And I've cry to face tomorrow.

I can't forget about that innocent face
I can't forget about that killing stare
I can't forget about that hopeful words
I can't forget about that characteristic
I can't forget about you, Ann.

Then someone has come
She has motivated in our messages
"She is the one", my deep said
I'd try to close with her
But, what I get?
Nothing...
Just some hopeful words again
Why is it happen to me so often?

I did not know the answer
I'm not smart
She left me just like that
The words that always makes me to cry
The words that means my act is limited until that
And all of her words that so hopeful to me is just futile.

So, I finish my last smoke
Twist my head
Looking down
Hands in the pocket
Get up from that spot
And walks away.

I did not notice
My tears felt down
I've to live with this heartbreak feelings
Continue what's I've left
And face the truth
I'll bring my faith with me
As a strength in life here and hereafter
It would be...


--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

Hey Ann

Hey Ann,
How's you doin'?
I know you're doin' great
You always do that
Always.

Hey Ann,
I have something for you
It's my heart
I'm not kidding
I'm serious.

Hey Ann,
It's been so long since our last stare
Man, your eyes is killing me
Yes dear
You have killed me
Killed my feelings.

Hey Ann,
I said that because I know
First time you stare at me, you'll said that you hate me deep inside
You know that
I could said that all of your word is just futile
I'm crushed, Ann
I know who I am.

Hey Ann,
I wish we could talk again
I know Ann
You left me because I answered your question
We've muted since that incident occured
God, what's my sin?

Hey Ann,
I've dedicated so much for you
I tried to forget but I can't
I wish the best for you
You know what
You had lost from my prayers
So phethatic
I'm sad too.

Hey Ann,
Nice to meet you
Thanks for everything
All your words I will keep it until end
And you can burn my gift
Although you had it or I'm just watch
And my tears down again
For you...



--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

27 WORDS

Ain Sofia,
Mata menawan.

Ain Sofia,
Kulit mulus.

Ain Sofia,
Senyuman membunuh.

Ain Sofia,
Renungan merundum hati.

Ain Sofia,
Wajah ceria.

Ain Sofia,
Insan cantik.

Ain Sofia,
Hati telah dicuri.

Ain Sofia,
Hampir sempurna.

Ain Sofia,
Penyelamat.

Ain Sofia,
Otak bijak.

Ain Sofia,
Fikiran cerdas.

Ain Sofia,
Penuh harapan.

Ain Sofia,
Putih bersih.

Ain Sofia,
Syurga menanti.

Ain Sofia,
Lembut bicara.

Ain Sofia,
Kesopanan.

Ain Sofia,
Jadi idaman.

Ain Sofia,
Insan buruan.

Ain Sofia,
Sungguh tenang.

Ain Sofia,
Menawan hati.

Ain Sofia,
Beretika.

Ain Sofia,
Memang terbaik.

Ain Sofia,
Menyenangkan.

Ain Sofia,
Jari bercincin.

Ain Sofia,
Jam di tangan kanan.

Ain Sofia,
Berbakat.

Ain Sofia,
Aku harap kau berbahagia disamping...


--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------

Ann,

Would you hold my hand?

Cause I know it wouldn't happen.

Would you help me stand?

Cause I know you wouldn't.

Ann,

Your eyes are bright tonight

And it makes me so hard not to cry

I always cried a tear for nobody but you

You're always on my mind.

Ann,

You came to me on the holy month

Keep me warm in your words

Then you slowly leave

And if you should say goodbye

I'd still go on loving you.

Ann,

You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour

You're my saviour when I fall

Now it all has gone

So phethatic.

Ann,

I just another stranger

How am I to judge you?

And wishing that you love me

If it can be.

Ann,

I want to hold you until I die

I keep apart of you with me

When you're gone

I have to close my eyes and hide.

Ann,

Can I be with you?

Although it just for a few second

And even you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear.

Ann,

Just turn away

I'm awful just to see

I'm crazy for trying on you

And I crazy for loving you.

--------ToKaN AL-MaNSuR--------